My Mother.....

I should have done this last night, but by the time we got home from a long day I had completely lost my mojo to do anything but lay on the couch. So I am wishing my Mother a late Happy Mothers Day! There is no body in the world quite like a Mother. She is my safe place in the world, the place I think of running to first when I need comfort and reassurance. There is nothing in this world that makes me feel better than I hug from her. She know just they way I like them, and she never pulls away first :) I don't think I ever fully appreciated my Mom until I was about to become one. It was then that I realized that she didn't know everything and that she wasn't perfect, but that her love for me was perfect and that is what made her the best Mom she could possibly be. Perfect, unconditional, eternal love. I have so many wonderful memories of my Mom. I remember her rocking me in the rocking chair in the very front room of the first house we lived in. She was the best Mom to have at bedtime. We had this long list of different kinds of kisses we would do every night and she would always sing me the most beautiful lullaby. I do some of those same kisses with Ava every night and we love it. The day before Ava was born we spent the whole day together, just hanging out and getting the last minute stuff ready. I was so scared that day, but having her there gave me the reassurance that everything would be all right, cause she was there and she would protect me. I knew that if she was there I could handle everything and that when the time came for me to break down she would hold me, and she did. I don't think I could have made it through that first week of being a Mother without her. She left me as prepared as I could have been, she even stocked my cupboards before she left. The most valuable thing my Mother has taught me is to never give up on people. She never ever gave up on me, even when she though I was a hopeless case. She never stopped loving me and when the time came she rescued. She new when the time was right and she was ready and waiting. She was the light that came to me in my darkest hour. She didn't judge me or tell me how stupid I had been, she just helped me get out, no questions asked. I spent a lot of time at her little house in Syracuse when I first moved here and I will cherish that time forever. I could not have asked for anyone better to leave my tiny new baby with than my Mom. When I came home from work everyday Ava was happy and smiling. I will never be able to repay my Mom for everything she has sacrificed and given to me. All I can do is promise to pay it forward with my own daughter (and hopefully future children). She has shown me just how to do it, and when things are getting crazy I try and put myself in her shoes and do things the way she would. I love you Mom!