A Perfect Day!

I went to the temple today!  There really are no words to express all that is in my heart right now. I just want to thank everyone who has helped me make it to the temple.  There have been so many people who have influenced my life for good.  It was so special to be in the temple with so many of them today.  Every person who was there with me today has touched my life in a very special way!  I can't think of any other place I would have rather been than there with my family and so many friends today.  It was a wonderful experience!

Right now......

Right now I am really missing my girl!  I did talk to her this morning though and she sounded great and was full of questions for me as usual.

It's gone and its never coming back!

In February I decided it was finally time to shed a few pounds.  Katie inspired my to join weight watchers online with her.  I love it!  It has totally worked for me, along with working out.  I started with swimming and was going at least 3 times a week.  I had forgotten how much I love to swim!  It has been such a great way for me to relieve stress and get in shape!  I think it would be safe to say that I am in the best shape of my life!  As of Monday I have officially lost 20 pounds!  My goal was 25 so I have a few more weeks until my end goal is accomplished!

Me before

This is me today in my "chubby" jeans (above)

And me in my new "skinny" jeans (below)

Typical Ava

This is the typical Ava cheesy grin.  LOVE IT!!!!

Cute Girls!

LeaRose, Megan, Eva, Kallie and Jenny

These are most of the girls in my Mia Maid class. They are all so awesome and unique in there own ways. They are so cute and I feel honored to be part of there lives. I have been the Mia Maid advisor for two years now. I can't believe it has been that long! I love my calling and have learned so much from the girls as well as the other leaders that I get to work with.

One Word!

1. Where is your cell phone?..................... table

2. Your significant other?.......................... none

3. Your hair?................................................ blonde

4. Your mother? ......................................... hugs

5. Your father? ............................................ supportive

6. Your favorite thing? .............................. food

7. Your dream last night? ......................... weird

8. Your favorite drink?.............................. coke

9. Your dream/goal? ..............................wedding

10. The room you are in? ......................... living

11. Your ex? ................................................ stupid

12. Your fear? ............................................. failure

13. Where were you last night? ............... date

14. What your not? .................................... boring

15. Where you want to be in six years?... MSW

16. Muffins? ..............................................Pumpkin

17. One of your wish items? ..................... house

18. Where you grew up? ........................ Corcoran

19. What are you wearing?........................ pajamas

20. Your TV? ................................................ tiny

21. Your pets? ............................................ zero

22. Your computer? .................................... clueless

23. Your life? ................................................ happy

24. Your mood? ........................................... groggy

25. Missing someone? ................................. Tricia

26. Your car?.................................................. Old

27. Something your not wearing? ............. makeup

28. Favorite store? ...................................... Express

29. Your summer? ....................................... fun

30. Like someone? ...................................... yes

31. Your favorite color? .............................. black

32. Last time you laugher? ........................ yesterday

33. Last time you cried? ............................ Hawaii

Becca

Mine and Becca's first meeting.  My hair has come a long way!

Me and Becca

Mom, me, Katie, and Becca

Ade, Jadeon, me, Katie, Becca, and Tori

This past week my Dad gave me the best treat!  He flew us out to go to Becca's eighth grade promotion.  It was so much fun to be there and celebrate with her.  She is such a blessing to our family and I love her so much and can't believe how grown up she is.  She is about to embark on her journey through High School.  I am so excited and scared for her.  She is going to learn and grow so much in the next few years.  I hope that she enjoys every moment of it and makes the most of being a teenager.  I want Becca to know how much I love her and how much I value my relationship with her.  I know I live so far away, but I think of her daily and look forward to every moment we get to spend together.  She is such a fun girl and even though I am sure she sometimes finds me old and boring we have fun together.  She is goofy like me and always laughs at me and with me.  Advice for Becca:  remember how special you are!  Don't change your values to fit in with the "in crowd".  Learn from my mistakes and don't make the same ones!  Do good in school, do all your homework and get good grades.  It will help you in college if you develop good habits now.  GO TO COLLEG and FINISH THE FIRST TIME!  You will never regret it!  Remember that your sisters love you and are available 24 7 365,  call anytime! I love you Doobie, thanks for choosing our family!

100 Random Things That Make Me Happy

1. Ava

2. Hearing the kids laugh when they are playing together

3. The smell of rain

4. My ipod

5. Hot shower after a long day

6. The smell of clean laundry

7. My new Aveda shampoo and conditioner.  I have soft hair for the first time EVER

8. New shoes that make you feel like a million bucks when you wear them

9. Old pictures that bring back memories

10. Clean sheets

11. Going to the movies

12. Working out

13. Getting a hard earned good grade

14. When Ava tells me how cute I am 

15. Katie

16. Hugs from my Mom

17. Watching my Dad with Ava

18. The random texts I get through out the day

19. Laughing on the phone with Tricia

20. Jamba Juice

21. Lemon Sour Cream pie from Marie Calendars

22. Money in the bank or my pocket

23. New clothes 

24. Home made orange rolls

25. Pizza

26. Girls night out

27. Savannah, Cooper, and Luka

28. Sunsets

29. Swimming

30. Pedicures

31. Bright Pink toe nail polish

32. Slippers

33. Reading

34. Hot baths

35. Church on Sunday

36. My upcoming trip to the temple

37. Strawberries dipped in sour cream and brown sugar

38. My new size 6 jeans

39. The amazing race

40. Hugs from Ava

41. My laptop

41. The smell of fresh cut grass

42. The smell of my grandma clarks house

43. The memory of the day Becca was born

44. Bath and Body Works

45. Christmas trees

46. Doing nice things for people

47. Baby smell

48. Cuddling with Ava

49. When Ava talks in her sleep, it always make me laugh

50.  Newborn babies

51. Emails from Chris

52. Pei Wei

53. Sugar Cookies

54. The beach

55. Pineapple

56. Cold Stone

57. Holding hands

58. Music

59. Going to school

60. Massages

61. Mint lotion on my feet

62. Summer nights

63. Hot Chocolate

64. The smell of coffee

65. Black shirts

66. Boy smell

67. Warm fuzzy socks

68. Cute pajamas

69. My hot pink chi hair straightener

70. Breathe Romance from Bath and Body Works

71. Satin Hands from Mary Kay

71. Quiet time alone

72. Accomplishing a goal

73. Diet Dr. Pepper

74. Marie Digbys Unfold CD

75. Cereal

76. Bracelets

77. The fact that I have finally quit biting my nails

78. Flip flops

79. Tahiti Sweetie lotion

80. Porch Swings

81. Pictures from Ava

82. Daisies

83. Makeup

84. Disneyland

85. Baby horses

86. The smell of fresh cut hay

87. My family

88. Dessert at the Dodo

89. Steal Magnolia's

90. Laughing

91. BBQ's

92. Sharon and Brad

93. Going for walks 

94. Sleeping

95. When my house is actually clean

96. Tulips

97. Summer

98. Singing 

99. Starry skies

100. Chocolate, duh!

Half Birthday

Today is Ava's half birthday.  Her sixth month pictures are my favorite pictures of her.  She would stick out her little tongue ever time she would smile at this age.  We laughed the whole time she was getting her pictures taken.  She was such a cute little baby and is still a cute little girl.  I can't believe how fast the years are flying by!

I'm Special

I'm Special

In all the world there's nobody like me.  Since the beginning

of time, there has never been another person like me.

Nobody has my smile.  Nobody has my eyes, nose, my

hair, my hands, my voice.

I'm Special

No one can be found who has my handwriting.  Nobody 

anywhere has my tastes~for food or music or art.  Nobody

sees things just as I do.  In all of time there's been no one

who laughs like me, no one who cries like me.  And what

makes me laugh and cry will never provoke identical

laughter and tears from anybody else.  EVER!  No one reacts

to any situation just as I would react.

I'm Special

I'm the only one in all of creation who has my set of 

abilities.  Oh, there will always be somebody who is better at 

one of the things I'm good at, BUT NO ONE IN THE 

UNIVERSE CAN REACH THE QUALITY OF MY

COMBINATION OF TALENTS, IDEAS, ABILITIES

AND FEELINGS.  Like a room full of musical instruments, 

some may excel alone, but non can match the symphony

sound when all are played together.  I'M A SYMPHONY.

Through all of eternity no one will ever look, talk, walk,

think, or do like me.

I'm Special.  I'm Rare.

I AM UNIQUE AND PRECIOUS...

And in all rarity, there is great value.  Because of my great 

value, I need not attempt to imitate others.  I will

accept -- yes, celebrate -- my difference.

I'm Special

And I'm beginning to realize it's no accident that I'm

special.  I'm beginning to see that God made me special for

 a very special purpose.  He must have a job for me that no

one else can do as well as I.  Out of all the billions of 

applicants, only one was qualified, only one has the fith

combination that it takes.

Happy Mother Day!

Aren't mothers seriously the greatest? I can't even imagine life with out my mother. She is the one person in the world I can go to and feel like everything is safe. She is the only one who can erase a bad day with just a hug and she always hugs me as long as I need, there is no time limit! She has taught me so many things, but most importantly she has taught me how to be a mother. I follow in her footsteps in so many ways with the way I do things with Ava. Of course I do a few things differently, who doesn't? My fondest memories of my mother are of her tucking me into bed at night. I even have a memory of being rocked in the rocking chair in the wigdal house. She would always do our special kisses with me (I still do them with Ava) and she would sing the most beautiful lullaby. It was our special time together. My mother has always known how to handle me. I was not always very easy to deal with and I think she knew that I just needed to be myself without being over bearing. I am so thankful that she never gave up hope that I would find my way in life one day. She always loved me! She walked with me through some of the darkest hours of my life and when the time was right she helped lead me to the light. Thanks Mom for all your loving guidance and all that you have taught me! I love you more than my luggage!

I am Ariel!

You Are Ariel!

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

In my daughter eyes........

I got the cutest mothers day card yesterday from Ava.  The picture of her on the front was pricelss, typical Ava cheesy grin, and the pictures she drew on the inside so cute.  She drew a picture of me and her.  I love the way she is starting to draw people.  There were questions inside that she answered about me.  She did a pretty good job with her answers, she knows me pretty well.  I was quite impressed.  Here is what she had to say.....

1. My mom is 26 years old.

2. She is 8 ft. tall. (don't I wish)

3. She weighs 6 pounds (so glad she didn't say 600)

4. Her favorite food is ice cream, chicken, cereal, soup (hmmm all pretty accurate accept the soup, that is a little random)

5. She likes to watch TV at night, and go to the beach (both true)

6. She doesn't like macaroni and cheese, when I hit (I do like mac n cheese)

7. She is working while I'm at school

8. I like it when my Mom takes me to the sucker store (other wise known as Jardines, and we go at least once a day)

Then she did her version of her name at the bottom.  So cute and it seriously made my day yesterday!

A newborn's conversation with God 
  



A baby asked God, 'They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?' God said, 'Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.'

The child further inquired, 'But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.' God said, 'Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy.'

Again the child asked, 'And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?' God said, 'Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.' 
'And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?' God said, 'Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.'

'Who will protect me?' God said, 'Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.'

'But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.' God said, 'Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.'

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, 'God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name.'

God said, 'You will simply call her, 'Mom.'  

Our babies are ALWAYS our babies...even when they grow older right along with us!   

Poor Baby!

Today we had quite the traumatic experience.  Ava got her toe run over with a shopping cart at costco and it took her big toe nail right off!  Her poor little toe was pretty cut up.  Katie and I took her to insta care where she had some x-rays to make sure it wasn't broken.  The Dr. said she didn't need any stitches and that she should heal okay.  She has no toe nail and it will take 8 months to a year for her new one to grow in.  She was pretty brave once she was over the initial shock.  I have to keep her toe bandaged for the next week and make sure that it does not get infected.  Poor girl!

Top of Waikiki

More Hawaii pics

Hawaii Day 2

We had another fun day in Hawaii Saturday.  Of course I was up before the sun at about 5 am.  I sat outside on the balcony of our hotel and just enjoyed the breeze and warm enough to be outside in a tank top weather.  It was so relaxing.  We went to breakfast at a place Chris recommended and it was so good.  I had coconut pancakes with coconut syrup and all the fixings that should come with breakfast.  It was such a yummy treat after 7 weeks on "the diet".  After breakfast we just shopped around and I bought Ava, Cooper and Savannah the cutest matching shirts and towels.  After shopping we met up with Chris and few of his friends at Hunauma Bay for a day of snorkeling and hangin out at the beach.  I have never been snorkeling and it was great.  And it should be no surprise that the top of my head ended up sunburned and is still hurting today!  After the beach Sharon and I went to the nicest restaurant called Top of Waikiki that over looks the city and turns in a circle so you can see the sights in all directions.  The food was great!  We both got filet mignon wrapped in motzerella cheese and cooked in a type of pastry.  It was divine!  But the best part was the company and the laughter.  We got a really cute picture taken that I will have to scan and post really soon.  I only have a few pictures from Saturday on my camera so I will post a few more by tomorrow!

Hawaii Day 1

Best toenail polish color ever!

Me and Sharon at the beach

Pineapple Dole Whip, my favorite!

Shaved ice at Matsumotos, a definite must!

The Hawaii Temple

Our first day in Hawaii was a blast!  We didn't get in until late on Thursday night so we found our hotel got all checked in ate at Denny's cause we were starving and then crashed.  We started pretty early on Friday morning and headed to the North Shore. We saw a ton of stuff and just had fun being together.  It was so nice to just do whatever we wanted without any rushing!  It was the perfect way to unwind from a crazy few months.  Friday night I met Chris and went to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory.  It was so much fun!  The day couldn't have been better

Sweet Success!

I finished my first semester today!  What a sigh of relief.  I made it and actually managed to pull it all off.  I know for sure that I got an A in both of my social work classes.  I should hopefully know my math grade by Friday and my grade in Biology by Monday.  I have never felt as good as when I walked out of my math final today.  I could not quit smiling.  I am just so glad that it is over and at the same time a little sad.  My schedule is changing again, just when I was getting used to everything.  I am so thankful for the opportunity that I have had to go back to school.  It was a hard choice to make and I was so close to backing out the first few weeks of school.  I am so thankful to all of you who have given me so much encouragement and support.  I could never do half of what I do with out the love and support of so many people.  It is humbling to think of all of the people who have been of service to me.  Thank you to my main supporters:  Katie, Ryan, Sharon, Brad, Dad, Nan, Mom, Rod, and all the many others who have given words of encouragement.  I have learned so much in the past 5 months it is overwhelming for me to even think about it.  I feel like part of me has started to live again and I have a new hope for the future.  This experience has increased my testimony that when we are doing the things that we are supposed to that our lives will be blessed in ways that we cannot even imagine.  All we have to do is take that leap of faith, do all we can and then leave everything else in God's hands.  Now, I am off to Hawaii for a weekend in the sand!  After the snow today I am extra ready to get away.

What Spice are You?

You Are Black Pepper

You may be considered ordinary by some, but you're far from boring. You elevate the mood of any discussion, and people miss you when you're not around. You are secretly very dominant and powerful. Most can only take you in small doses.

What Spice Are You?

Flash back friday

Aren't those feet precious!  

A new set of eyes

This semester I took a social welfare class.  I am so glad that it is a required class for my major! I have thoroughly enjoyed every second of this class and it has changed the way I look at myself, my family, my neighbors and basically people and the world in general.  I will openly admit that I have had a very apathetic attitude, until know.  I have never been actively involved in politics because honestly I just didn't think that it would make a difference in the world.  My teacher, Jen, has inspired me beyond words.  I knew that I was going to either have to step up or step out from the first day of class.  I took the challenge and decided to find my passion and find a way to stand up and make a change.  I think that biggest thing that I have learned about myself is that I have passion and that I have just never had the courage to embrace it.  I am still deciding what my passion will be in the field of social work but I have learned one thing and that is my passion right now is for my family.  And what better place to start changing the world!  I have the world of a beautiful and precious beyond the realm of my imagination 3 year old in my home.  I have the responsibility to teach her how to find her own passion and how to make a difference in the world she lives in.  That is the best way for me to make a difference in the world.  It is my belief that one of the most important things I can teach her is that she has the world at her feet and that she can do and be anything she wants and the best way for me to teach her that is for her to see me doing it! There have been many topics discussed in class that have stirred great emotions.  Racism, Social Justice, Social Reformers, Poverty, Policy, Immigration, Health Care and many more.  I was extremely moved by the lecture on immigration last week.  We watched a documentary "Mojado".  It has really given me a different perspective on so many things.  The documentary follows the plight of four men crossing the border into Texas.  It started with giving back ground on each of the men and the reason why they wanted to come the U.S. for work.  Then it followed them on their journey.  It was a four day journey through the desert through rain, freezing temperatures, drinking contaminated water, eating moldy bread, being pricked by cactuses, and not know if they would really reach their destination.  I can't even imagine what these men were willing to go through just for the chance of providing a better life for their families.  It kept showing one man thinking of the face of his daughter when things were getting tuff and every time her face came on the screen the only thing I could think of was the face of my sweet Ava.  I feel like I understood what this men where willing to sacrifice for their families.  I still don't have the solution to the problem of immigrants in our country but I do know one thing is that every single person we come into contact should be treated with integrity and respect.  That is the best place to start.  We all need to take a step back and take a walk in the shoes of someone else before we decide how we view them.  So, here is my question to you:  What would you be willing to walk through the dessert with no food or water for? What would you do for the chance to change the life of another?  What's your passion?

Thanks Jen for helping me to see myself in a different light.  And even more importantly thank you for helping to see the world in a different light!

IF IT IS SANITY YOU ARE AFTER LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE

I truly believe that a good laugh is essential to the survival of ones spirit.  It makes me FEEL better.  It keeps me going.  I NEED to laugh at least once a day.  I truly believe that being able to laugh at oneself is one of the best qualities a person can have.  If I could not laugh at myself I would be one pretty frustrated person.  I do some of the stupidest things sometimes that if I couldn't just shrug off with a laugh they could ruin my whole day.  I probably laugh the most when hanging out with my two sisters and my mom.  When me and Katie get going we can't stop some times.  We get under control take one look at each other and start up again.  I love moments like these, they literally keep me sane. Laughter is the sensation of feeling good all over and showing it principally in one place.  Have you had a good laugh today?  This picture is dedicated to Becca, she is the queen of taking silly pictures, this one never fails to make me laugh at least a little.

I WANT:  a perfectly sculpted and tan body, no stretch marks please

I HAVE:  big plans for a much needed girls night out with Katie, thanks Ryan

I WISH:  i didn't have to study for my finals all weekend

I HATE:  when people don't use there signals when driving

I MISS:  my friend Tricia

I HEAR:  Shoop by Salt-n-Pepa, and Ava talking to herself in the kitchen

I WONDER:  if I will actually pull off passing my math class, it is close people!

I REGRET:  too many things, but the past is just that, the past

I AM NOT:  good at my current jogb, in fact I pretty much suck at it

I DANCE:  I have no skills in this department

I SING:  in my car

I CRY:  when I watch the movie Hope Floats 

I AM NOT ALWAYS:  on top of things the way I should be

I MAKE WITH MY HANDS:  pretty much nothing, not a creative bone in this body

I WRITE:  for the past four months I have written 6 papers for school, got A's on all them too thank you very much

I CONFUSE:  myself

I NEED:  a personal assistant and a maid, oh yeah and a sugar daddy :)

I SHOULD:  do better at keeping up with my house work and laundry

I START:  everyday with checking my email and everyone's blogs

I FINISH:  with kissing my sweet girl and telling her how much she needs and giving thanks for all my many, many blessings!

I love this......

This is inspiring me today:

Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small doesn't serve the world.  There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.  It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -- Nelson Mandela

New Shoes

I know this is random but I got these new shoes at Costco on Saturday.  I love them!  So comfortable and cute.  Seriously they are pink and grey, how could they not be cute.  This is my view of them while doing my morning work out!  

The Fam

This is my family.  Well part of it, just missing my mom and and all the step family.  But really these people are my family.  It is too rare that we are all together and even actually stop the chatter to capture the moment.  It was so fun to see my family this week.  Thursday was definitely the best part of my week.  

I love you because.......

A few Sundays ago there was the most impressing talk given in sacrament meeting.  It was given by one of the High Council men in my stake.  It has really stuck with me.  He talked about an experience he had as a bishop at age 26.  There was a woman in his ward that had come to him with marital problems.  She was very angry with her husband and asked if they could come see him together.  He agreed and when the couple came to see him before doing anything he asked them to do what seemed like a pretty simple task.  He asked them to look at each other and list all the reasons they loved each other.  That was all it took, all anger and tension left the room. The woman in the story ran into him several years later and expressed her thanks to him for helping so save her marriage.  The funny thing is that he didn't even remember the experience until she told him the story.  He then when on to express how important it is that we share with the people in our lives why we love them.  He said that his family takes the time to have each member in the family sit in a chair and then everyone takes a turn say "I love you because...."  He then went on to encourage us to do the same thing when we pray and express our love specifically to our Father in Heaven.  "I love you because....."  This phrase has really stuck in my head.  It is so simple yet so profound.  I think mostly because lately it has occurred to me just how much I love my family.  Every single one of them for very different reasons!  I strongly believe that they are all in my life to teach me very specific lessons and to help me make it through life.  I have been able to spend some really fun days with my two sisters in the the last few weeks.  They are so AWESOME and words can never explain all the ways that I love them!  No two people can make me laugh so hard.  We have seriously laughed ourselves to tears every time we have been together lately.  I am thankful for their sisterhood and friendship to me.  I love you Katie and Becca!

Happy Birthday Sharon!

Happy Birthday Sharon!!! Thank you so much for all you do for me and Ava. I can't imagine my life without you and I am so thankful that you are part of mine and Ava's family. You are amazing and we LOVE you so, so much! Here are a few reasons why I love you:

1. You are seriously the STRONGEST person I know
2. Your smile always warms my heart
3. You love Ava and I know that you would do anything for her
4. You never hesitate to serve others
5. You laugh and cry with me

Here are a few reason why Ava loves her ( I did not edit these answers)

1. Its her birthday
2. she lets us come over and eat
3. she reads me books
4. she comes to church
5. we let her come over to our house

Part of me in 100

1. I have no middle name

2. I am a mother, sister, daughter, aunt, and friend

3. I hate oranges and bananas, with a passion

4. I have never broken a bone

5. I shave my arms (I hate body hair!)

6. My favorite color to wear is black

7. I will be 27 this year :(

8. I am only 5'1"

9. I love to get pedicures

10. My favorite movie is Steel Magnolia's

11. I listen to the Morning Zoo on 97.1 zht every morning.  It never fails to make me laugh out loud at least once!

12. I finally joined the 21st century in December!  I now have an i-pod, cable, a computer, and the internet.  Yeah!

13. I pray every day for my "prince charming" to find me or for me to find him. 

14. I am excellent at multi-tasking

15. I have two sisters who are completely fab!

16. I also have 9 step brothers and sisters

17 I am the oldest single grand child on my Dad's side of the family

18. I hate wearing dresses and shorts

19. I wear make up everyday

20. I have two tattoos

21. I really, really want to do the Amazing Race with Katie

22. I peed on the 50 yard line of the football field when I was in High School. Stupid, huh?

23. I have been to the Apollo theatre in harlem

24. I cannot sing, not at all.  If you don't believe me ask my fam

25. I HATE cats

26. I love Coca Cola, haven't a had the real thing in weeks!  

27. I have learned the hard way that there really is life after love, and it is even better than I imagined it would be

28. I have a serious love of junk food

29. I prefer veggies over fruit

30. I am very uncorrdinated

31.  I hate crying in front of people and avoid it at all costs

32. I love the beach, but I love it more at night when you can mostly just hear the waves and the sand is cold on your feet

33. cereal is one of my favorite foods

34. I could eat "breakfast" food for every meal

35. I don't like left overs, ewww

36. I am a wimp when it comes to pain

37. As a child I would tell people I was allergic to work when asked if I had an allergies

38. I have been present at the birth of my niece and one of my nephews

39. I was in labor with Ava for 22 hours.  22 very long hours for every one involved, remember I am a wimp

40. There is almost nothing better than a home cooked meal at my Moms table

41. I love to swim

42. I got my tonsils out when I was 12 and really thought I would die from it

43. My sisters call me "the brother"

44. I tend to be a push over sometimes

45. I am genuine

46. Other girls scare me

47. I can be both really smart and very air headed at the same time

48. I am really good at multi-tasking

49. I hate being barefoot and always have shoes, socks or slippers on

50. I am currently a college student, for the second time

51. I will hopefully get a degree in Social Work

52. Plan B is a sociology degree

53. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I decided to become a mother

54. That being said it has been the most rewarding thing to ever happen to me

55. My favorite store to shop at is Express

56. I love to read and have a stack of books that are calling my name

57. I was a cheerleader in high school

58. I hate rules 

59.  I am very independent

60. I am terrible at math

61. My favorite perfume is Breath Romance from bath and body works

62. I probably kiss Ava's cheeks at least a 100 times everyday

63. I have the worst habit of hitting the snooze button for an hour before finally dragging myself out of bed

64. I went to San Diego State right after high school and it was one of the best years of my life

65. I look just like my Dad

66. I am sentimental

67. All of my friends are older than me

68. I am right handed

69. I have super thick hair, seriously enough for two people

70. I am very messy, my mom says that I leave a trail behind me where ever I go, and just the other day I realized she is right

71. If I had more money I would so pay someone to clean up after me

72. I have never met a doughnut I didn't like

73. I am shy when I first meet people, it usually takes me a while to warm up

74. Most of my friends and family call me Jewels

75. My worst fear is spending the rest of my life alone

76. Someone once told me to remember the three B's = the bad, the bold, and the beautiful, and still to this day I do

77. If I could go back to any time in my life I would probably pick living in HB with Tricia, we had some good times together and she is one of the few people who really "get me"

78. I never wear jewelry

79. I love being at home

80. I go to the movies alone sometimes and I am totally okay with it

81. I wish that my mom lived close by

82.  My big sister is my best friend and it is rare that a day passes where we don't talk

83. One of the best memories I have of my child hood is the day my little sister Becca was born

84. I never really understood what love was until the birth of my niece Savannah

85. I really, really want to have another child

86. I love wearing lipstick, but hate the way it taste, so I am a brand snob when it comes to buying it

87. I can spend insane amounts of money at the Mac counter

88. I take a HOT bath every night, except when there is no hot water

89. I was a waitress for 4 years and really miss it

90. I still cry at least once a month when I drop Ava off in the morning

91. I always wear pajamas when I am home

92. Me and Ava get a family picture taken every year 

93. My birthday is the time of year I make my resolutions for the new year

94. I need to get better at sticking up for myself

95. I am patiently waiting for August to get here so I can read the next book in the Twilight series, and I would pick the vampire 

96. I am impatient

97. I have naturally curly hair but I have never worn it that way and straighten it everyday

98. I am starting to feel "old"

99. I try not to take myself too seriously

100. I learn new things about myself everyday